A deep and overwhelming, truly guttural, sadness fills me. 

I know that it is lifetimes long. 

How has this been the way its been for so long?

How did we ever let it get to this point?

I don't want to be the person I am

Trapped in this body

I am not all I seem to be

None of us are

Ghosts who have merely forgetten we are angels

Woven of the same cloth

But never the same string

A paradox in the making

Fluid

Ever-being

Not like this

Not like this

I used to be so much more

I was so close

Now I struggle to exist in the present

I wanted to be grand for the thoughts in my mind

Nobody else cares to think them

But at the end of the day

That's all it is

And ever was

Thoughts in the mind

Nobody seems to find

They don't exist in me

Yet it's all I can seem to pull out

I just want to cry

I dont want to partake

In this life

This unavoidable karma I gain by merely existing in these exploitative systems

How can I forgo

How can I escape

It is this body that entraps me so

Keeps me stuck here

What a pity to think this is all it is

All these wars

Genocide

Violence

Nerver ending,

Damnable

Violence.

All for this.

For people to yell in traffic and at their children

Nothing more comes from this

Only from each other

I want to die

But I have chosen to stay

A decision we all must make

This life is here regardless

Moving

Existing

With or without your intentional presence

But lady love never be mistaken 

Your majesty and magick make it all the more bearable

Dare I say cherishable

All the love that exists in you

Is meant to be here

Meant to be felt

To be shared

To be stored for a rainy day

Find that love again

And give it to yourself

This is all we must do to stay

We will create a better day