too many thoughts

too little time

too many ideas

too little capacity

how do you recover from exhaustion while working?

how can you reclaim yourself while enslaved?

how can you see while you are blinded?

how can you relearn how to dream?

how can i understand myself and my milestones

while i have yet to see

beyond the measures and the scorned skylines

of my broken pieces and forgotten dreams

i used to be my brother

i used to love my mother

but it's been too long and ive seen them both

up close and afar

i see it all

every perspective

but my understanding cannot allow 

nor my empathy enable

old patterns

systems ive outgrown

if we grow together again

ill be the happier for it

but how can i be myself 

and not become emeshed again

with all i am trying to allow myself to be freed from

and unlearn.

how can i do it?

take it day by day

you only have control in the present

you only have today

there is no other way than through

you must experience it all

raw, true, and real

but remember that experience is you.