I think I love you again
As the story goes
So close yet so far apart
Judging at a distance
Curiosity has long fled the heart
Creating chaos instead of change
You almost remember what it was like
Not to have to pretend
That you don’t hate yourself
Oh, the guilt
Juggling a mask and a stilt
Constantly falling over
And expecting you won’t again
This world wasn’t made for you
They’re trying to take it from you and me
Stealing all the glee
That doom for life you feel
Was never your fault
It’s not yours to keep
You’re strong enough to feel it all
And keep on going
Working on yourself
Singing to yourself
A change is gonna come
What is this feeling
Did I really used to feel this way?
Gone again
Trying to remember what it was like
To love myself
To not want to kill myself
Doom for life
Doom for existing beyond
I just wanted a break from existence
A breath
None was granted
Just a long enduring
A physical experience of healing
And it hurts
And you’re mean during it
But that makes sense for the most part
As long as you keep pushing yourself
To return to yourself
To love yourself
Again